#Soul searching lyrics jayteks how to#

#Soul searching lyrics jayteks how to#

ThatвЂ™s the only way I know how to crack a smile, taking shots вЂ™til I vomit and IвЂ™m passing outвЂ¦ When IвЂ™m sober, I just feel afraid, I donвЂ™t know if IвЂ™ma live to see another day. Take a look into my eyes, see the pain, oh, theres plenty there. Plague in my soul, swear its like a wildfire, like a wildfire spreading everywhere. Pool full of liquor, swim вЂ™til I fuckinвЂ™ drown. Im tryin to stand but I feel like Im about to cave, Im so trapped in my mind like a fuckin slave So much weight on my chest, got me feeling tired. The Devil wants my soul I could feel him tearing through my skin I could hear him breathing down my neck And every sunrise is growing dim I said it's growing dim All this darkness I hold within I've grown heartless and filled with sins The Devil's conscious, that's where I've been He held me hostage and I can't escape I'm out of options and I'm. I came up, but it feels like IвЂ™m coming down. If you hear me Lord, talk to me, all the sins from my past have been haunting me, IвЂ™m so scared of the future so I stay stuck broken into pieces, yo, my spirits all taped up Mamma, know IвЂ™m sorry for this route in which IвЂ™m taking, I ainвЂ™t fuckinвЂ™ proud of these decisions that IвЂ™m making, but IвЂ™m desperate for some answers, why my heart is always aching Making dirty money, yo, this shit is so degrading. Tired of being broke, gotta start acting shady. Chasing all my dreams, but I donвЂ™t know where itвЂ™s gonвЂ™ take me Got a big heart, but my heartвЂ™s slowly breaking. I see my own reflection, and I swear I fuckinвЂ™ hate me, I said I swear I fuckinвЂ™ hate me I still battle with depression on a daily. I canвЂ™t decide what the fuck am I here for, IвЂ™m doing what I love but my heartвЂ™s still sore. This poetry is all I have when I feel deprived, I grab my pad and my pen, and I feel revived IвЂ™m so lost in my dreams donвЂ™t know what is real.